The day of movie watching and singing K with teddy bear@him

Teddy bear is a bear he purposely brought back from Shanghai Hotel for his previous trip to Shanghai. Although it paying without one sen, but as my friend told me, he brought back for me already enough. Maybe that is enough. I know about it very clear.
At this half month he is clearing his annual leave. And yesterday is my one day public holiday as well, so we hang out for the whole day. Really happy even his mother goes out with us as well. Maybe that is enough. I do not wish to put any other hope; my principle now is as long as happy that is enough. Do not care what the next is. As my experience, a thing which is out of expectation it will more excited and happier. I am very enjoying such feeling. Maybe the previous habit where love to put hope always make me disappointment and regret as well. So now, I will not restrict myself in such stupid condition.
No more restriction for myself and for my friend also. As meow told me, Mei Hoong please let me go, don’t always tell me this not well, that is not good. As I promised you meow, I will not do this again. The funny thing is three of seem like have difference direction already. At fist we promise each other not to touch sex, drug and cigarette in clubbing. But at last it totally changes. As what I tell you both as long as you both happier I am happier as well. What to do. As long as I am not willing to do so, please do not force me as well. You need me to understand you, please understand me as well. Don’t force me smoke again. If I want to smoke I will take it, if I don’t want, please don’t force me.
OOppp.... back to the day out with teddy bear@him. Yesterday around 11.00am we went to SS2/4a to found the place for his mother. And then we rushed back to Cheras NewWay to sing K. We spent about 3 hours inside the K room. At around 4.30pm, we back home to have a rest for awhile and at 5.10pm, we out again. The show was staring at 6.00pm. The movie we watch is 2012. He said to me, it totally west his money and time to sit there to see the show. LOL…. For me, the lesson gain from the movie is rich people have authorizes to continue survive. Most of the human is selfish, only small part of people have sympathies. In order not to regret to have that day, I am also not the super rich guy, so will not west my time to sad and down always. I want to be happy over the day I have.
Over all yesterday’s date was not bad quite fun and happy as wellJ. I am writing this blog at my lousy working place now. Since no things to do here and my boss is bc with his DC meeting.

A very sudden Clubbing Night

It was happening at last two day. Flashed back my memory for that day, I’m remembering after finished my dinner, I sat on my baby sofa there online as what as usually I done. Actually my cousin brother had asked me to go Pasar Malam with him during the dinning time, and I’m also promised him to go with him. But after I change all my lovely pajamas into a grey t-shirt and white pants, he still sat on the sofa without putting any clothe there. By that time I got a bit angry and I asked whether you still want to go Pasar Malam. He answered and said wait first. Then I did not care about him and then I sat there silently. Suddenly my phone was rang who called from My darling Moew, she called me out to have a drink, at first I thought was just a small drink then I direct promised her and forget I have to go out with him. After putting down my phone, I only awaked about it. Ooppss….hehhee..

I get myself to change clothe again. After dress up my lovely and newly Forever 21, I just waited Moew’s coming. At that moment he did not said anything. I know he got a bit angry. What to do, he is not my Tingting. Wahahhahha…

At fist we planed to go Library but at last we had changed our plan to New Centaury where located at The Curve. That was the fist time I’m been there. The environment was quite nice. It was decorated with those shinning light and Christmas Trees

We still have one friend to join us who is Meow admire I think. He was so pity that night, spent more than RM 200++ get for nothing. Maybe he did get something but I don’t think so. That night he spent us 3 glasses of cocktail and two bucket of beer. Mine one is the most delicious among the 3 cocktails. But since both of them beg me so hard to finish for them, so those 3 cocktail were finished by me.

Maybe mixed with difference types of alcohol, I get drunk. When I reached home it was 4.00am. I was damn tired and direct slept on my bed without take bath. My alarm clock rang at 6.00am, but I failed to week up. At last was my aunty call me up.

I rushed to meet Rebecca at Pemaisuri and go to office by her car. When we reached to the office, it was already 7.00am. Since that day I have to do price change for that day, so I just bough a cup of coffee as my mentally support. After an hour, I felt damn dizzy. Then I went to toilet and vomit. I had vomited at seven times silently. My whole working day was full with dizzy and uncomfortable.

……Maybe that is ENOUGH……

Sometime I’m feeling confuse in my life.
Maybe I’m not understood what I’m prefer.
Maybe that is enough.
But I felt like not willing.

Sometime I’m wishing to put hope on it.
Maybe I’m not daring to do that.
Maybe that is enough.
But I felt like I’m standing on the cross road

Life seem like filled with many of confusion.
Life seem like filled with many of dissatisfaction
Life seem like filled with many of unhappiness
Life seem like filled with many of meaningless

Maybe that is enough to be contented and remined
Maybe that is enough to be appreciated and take it.

Is that needed to STOP heRE….

Today, as usual I have woke up at 6.00am and ate a delicious breakfast before go to work. Reached office at 7.30am and opened the computer to star my boring work again. My entire big boss had a meeting at 10pm, so I can freely to be myself. By that time my brain plays back all the great memories we had together. My colleague asked me what so delight to make me smile silently. Then I answered him nothing. Actually I’m enjoyed those memories while doing the boring stuff.

After the lunch, I have to do some price changed for the local fruits, import fruits, beans and FAM (Farm Agricultural Market). As show in below, there are some of the prices changing descriptions for store and REST system.
** At first we will get a quotation price from our respectively suppliers, after that we have to compare the previous week goods price. If there is difference with previous price, we have to highlight it and change it. Then we change the selling price accordingly to the margin profit that has set by the product manager. In order to protect our profit, we also have to compare the price with the other supplier. If we know the other supplier offer us lower price, then we have to take an action to call them and ask the reason why they set the price so high. ~ CH, PR, and BA~ are under the Lucky Starlight local fruit supplier however for the SU, TP and KP are under the Caba local fruit supplier. Then for the import fruits, the supplier is only come from one company which is Khaisen. After those price change stuff, we have to send out a notification to let the store know about it.** REMEMBER must delete the margin and the profit margin before send out the mail to the store people. Usually we do the price change on Monday and effective date is on Wednesday. Last step is correct the price inside the REST system. Forget how about the vegetable and also the beans; ~ who is CC and who is sending~ hrrmmmm I have to ask my partner tomorrow.

End my work a bit late but not as late as before, and today I walk to car park with Mr. C**** who come from household department. I have asked him something about “this” retail industry. Hrrmmm… As he told me, be a buyer from this industry, can’t change or not so easy to be the other industry’s buyer. The first word come to my mind is that I needed to stop my job now. Even though in this industry, my department is the most challenges department. But in future or long run, are we still got value.

….My First joB….as a buyer assistant

This is my first job after my degree graduation. It was one week ago I went to work. So far everything seems not bad. I have to weak up at 6.15am every morning and spent 40 minutes to reach my working place. At fist, I thought that I will be very sleepy or cant weak up so early but the fact proved that I can. I had 2 days training at the Subang Segi branch to know the operation and recognized the items. ooooOOOo..yA…. I am under the fresh group which handles all the vegetables, fruits and dry goods. Everybody quite nice and treat me like little girl. Not bad. Hahhahahha….. Very care for me, no matter go for lunch or pick up the car, they will call me walk together. I am the only girl who always stay together with them, sometime really felt Malu. Hehehhee...Not only that, sometimes I’m felt that I have known nothing at there and the typing speed very slow. That why I decided to go for work more early for next week. Really damn much items waiting me to sum up. Today I’m quite guilty, just because my manager and my partner try their best to finish their job to submit but I am still leave at the slow level. Feel that I am a burden to them but not much help to them. Hope all the best for the coming week. :)

WhEre iS mY LoVely MiRaCle

Don’t know why, currently I have such feeling that I'm not daring to apply any job position. Again really sent out much resume, until unaffordable to count how much I had sent. But still the responds were so poor. I’m only got two calls for interview. Some more the answer given by the employee was the same, waiting call. Sound better to hear, but inside my heart already know the answer which is hopeless. Anyway is rather than on spot to reject me. My life no longer green, feel tasteless and dull. My Fat keep add on to my body, until reached to the status of overweight. Every thing is going oppose my mind right now. Ever second I’m cheering my mind to life up, unfortunately it’s unsuccessful. Ooohh, just wish my dear god will bless me as a poor girl to has a good luck all the way. Need to rest, not to think I am jobless or useless. Evade myself from the realistic life for awhile and share my joyful with my reading and social life. I believe I can get rid of it, but need a short break to waiting a miracle to appear into my hopeless life. I know it might impossible happen on me, but I am still holding this wish. << Life goes On>>

My 2nd Job interview

Don’t know why these couple of days I felt that I am not in condition. Seem like something gone wrong. After finishing my 2nd interview, I had awaked that I am getting back to the right track now. Maybe I am concerned for my last Friday and todays interview until I can’t really do my stuff as usual.

My interview appointment was at 9.30am and I reached there 9.20am. After filling up a form, I just sat there silently to notice the working condition. The staffs over there were not so friendly and did not use much English in their conversation. Huhh….. Damn bored to sit there. I have sat there for 30 minutes only been call to go up stair to meet the manager. Before went into the manager room, the staff call me to have a typing test. I have spent 10 minutes to type out a short paragraph. Walou….. My typing speeds as low as a turtle. WTF…….. Anyway, I have tried my best to speed up my typing speed already. My cousins always laugh on my typing skill.

After all, eventually I can meet him up. Beside the manager, there was another interviewee sat inside the room. She looks very smart but the manager really looks alike ALONG. Hahhahaa… The whole interview just spent half hour only and the same answer given by them which was waiting the call.

The Day hanging out with my lovely Buddies

Every time when she is back from KL, for sure we will meet up together. No matter in mamak store or pub house, we were very enjoyed our date. As she told me, we can be always be ourselves when we are together. Hehehee….That is one of the reasons we always hang out together. CLubBINg is our favorite activities. But currently I’m still not attaching to any company, I have no money for clubbing as before which fully supported by my PTPTN loan. So end up we just went to Mamak store to have a Milo KOsong, yesterday night. I know you both wanted headed to the pub house already, but I’m so sorry I can’t make it by yesterday or before i am getting a job.

HuH….. I miss the time we were clubbing inside the disco and fun pub. My mind always plays the clubbing song. Make me so desperate to have a fun inside the pub. Hahahhaha…… Normally, we went there just danced for nothing, laughed for nothing and drunk for nothing or sometime went there just to release stress or made that moment happy only. Its look very wasted, but really enjoyed ooooOOoooo…. Some buddy will score me later, why I am so wasted money. Hahahahah…. Ya….. I’m trying to control not go there so often, but still will go. Heehehhehe… OOoo…Yaaaaa…. We have a funny rule which is no dance and no touch with guy, ~unusual touch –sensitive part pls don’t, shoulder still can la... hope totally no guy disturbing~ we more enjoyed. Its looks funny right?? Haahhahhaha……….. We went there not like sex hunter just hope to grub a sex partner or what. Hrrrmmmm….. Please don’t misunderstand my meaning. I am not saying that all people go clubbing are sex hunter, there are still have some as us go for a little drink but left not much.

Hey girls, u both must help me to pray by this coming month I can get a good career. Then we can go clubbing AgAiN. hahhahHAHHAhhaha……. Really scare the guy will run away from us, since we know guy do not like girl go for clubbing, but they do. How to judge this? Anyway we just be mine, be us, be ourselves. Don’t care how to judge that. Fair or unfair is really hard to make a standard judgment. It depend what is the measurement inside the heart.

My First Interview after My Degree Program

Yesterday, I went for an interview in SJ securities firm. The position that I’m applied was management trainee. That firm allocated at Subang Jaya. It was very far from my aunty house and I have to interchange the train in KL Central to Subang Jaya station. Besides that, I had taken a taxi to reach that place after I went down from the train. I had spent one and the half hours and RM17.80 for my transportation cost. The transportation cost exactly equal as my Ipoh bus ticket to KL but shorten period to reach the destination. Huhhhh….. I’m very disappointed and felt sad about my bad appearance in the interview. It seems like the time and the cost that I have spent were not worth at all.

Anyway it was a good career but not a good job. You might have a big question mark there in your mind, what it means. As my personal finance lecture told me a good career is start with very low pay but have a good and bright future. It is a long term work and long term generates high pay. However, a good job is stand for a high pay at the beginning but not much further increment in the future. Maybe it depend what you want. If you concern money very much you might say that job is not suit for you. However, if your mind and my mind are the same to think that future bright is more important than currently salary; you might say that is a job you hope to seek. I’m really hoped that I can get that job, and I am willing to fight for all challengers. OOo…. The thing I can do is just sit at my home and wait, hope that can pass my fist interview and can proceed to my second interview. Maybe I pass the first interview might fail in the second interview. Loolll…I am thinking over already….Haizzz……

My English so bad, bad until I felt shy to write more and talk more during my interview. Maybe can’t be say that I am shy, but actually I’m very poor in English until I do not know how to write and what to say. Maybe my interview skill not strong enough until I did not performed well during the interview. Too many maybe I have mention here, but which is the real and true. I am still wondering, what kind of job suit for me, good job or good career. I think I might set a time film; if I still can’t seek for a career then I should find a good job. Good bless me and those who still unemployed.

What i'm concern for This MinuTe

She is struggling whether her decision is rite or wrong. She does not know where to go and what to do. Maybe that all is my own expectation without asking her opinion, what is her concern. Maybe I can’t give any comment on it, but we are so care for her. Sometime I am wondering is that we are come from difference background until have these misunderstanding. No doubt, that may one of the fact. I can’t do anything beside just wish her have a good life. As long as she happy with her decision, that is enough for all. As I understood we come to this world just a little time, so have to enjoy our life with cheerful and no regret.

My Wonderful graDuation TriP iN Sabah <<10th June - 15th June >>

Come back from Kota Kinabalu (KK) for 2 days already, only by today I am being free to sit here to write my blog about my wonderful graduation trip in Sabah. First of all, I would like to thank to our organizer who treat us very good care in KK, especially his parents treat us free accommodation in KK mount and the nice seafood in Floating Seafood Market Restaurant in KK. Max Fung I am really appreciates everything that you have arranged for us. Beside that, I need to thank to Vincent Tay also who is Fung’s friend and a good tour guide. He is a very nice and gentle people, refreshed back to the first day we arrived to KK airport, we were very excited. Since we saw him took a piece of paper which had written UTAR FE GROUP 3. For such action, the fist world came out from my mind was idiot rather than funny. It was totally out of our expectation, at fist we thought was Mix will came to meet us up in airport. Huh, why suddenly have such stupid fellow made us so embarrass in here. No choice, we have to follow him to back to our staying place first. When we walk to the entrance, we were so delighted to see a familiar face stand over there. At last, we only know that was Fung purposely arranged for us to have a warm welcome to Sabah. LoL…

After put our heavy stuff into the van, we went for that day’s lunch. The fist lunch in Sabah is生肉面 in Kedai KOPI JIA SIANG and then went to Yoyo cafe to have some “tong sui”. Then we only back to my staying place. It was an apartment and its name as Marine Coat. Our room was nice enough to enjoy the sea view. We had taken 2 hours to prepare ourselves after we went to sew萤火虫. Unfortunately we can’t saw much 萤火虫 but we still can enjoy the starry night. Duel to the next day plans were gone to Sapi Island and the other island where I forget the name, we had no choice and just went back to our apartment to rest. Until the mid night there was a funny incident happens to our master room’s bath room. There was a lot of Wee Yuan’s shit floating on the toilet water and can’t flash it off. It made us laugh on it for the whole night. It brought us a little inconvenient also.

Around 9am, Fung had bought us some simply breakfast before went to Sapi Island. It was a sunny day, and just nice for us to plays the water activities. There were five of them playing football on the beach while others were snorkeling under the sea. When the clock showed 12.00pm, we had stopped our activities and having our hottest lunch on the beach. After the lunch we all went to see the huge lizard, it was my fist time to see the huge lizard on the beach. Around 1pm we went to the other island, then we just spent 3 hours on that island then we went back to our apartment. After the dinner, we went to Giant hypermarket to buy some steamboat stuff for the next day dinner in KK mount After that we went to drink “tong sui” in one of the famous tong sui shop in KK. That shop have sold many types of tong sui. We ordered difference of tong sui, and shared it together. This kind of sharing with them, I think may be last for my life time. We also have went to CC to check our mail while other guy playing their online together. Our joys and laugh totally fulfill in the CC. I miss that feeling we are together.

For the third day, we went to KK mount. Along the way there was some small store to sell the local handmade souvenir. We just stopped there and our barging king ~ Vincent ~ started to show his talent to fight for lower price. Wee Yuan and Jeffery are the most beneficial since they can buy those souvenirs in low price. When we were reached KK mount it was already 3.15pm and the restaurants there were still not run their business yet. Then we just tried to find some junk food. Eventually Vincent brought us to eat roster chicken wings. It was very tasty even tough the table all full with the flies. After the lunch we went to the nation park, we took some pictures over there then only went back to the accommodation that Fung’s father rent for us. For that day’s dinner, it was totally prepared by our girl but the guy just like a king and did nothing over there. After the busy dinner, there was only a little time for me lie on bed outside the boundary to see the starry night. It was very enjoy seeing the starry night with my huge blanket.

For that night I believe all of us have a sweet dream since the temperature was cool enough. However I was weak up at 6.30am morning, but I am not the earliest to weak up for that day. San Fei was the earliest to weak up to prepare the breakfast. Then I just help her to mix the tuna with the mayonnaise. After the breakfast we started our next journey the hot spring. There was my first time to walk the “hanging bridge” and saw the Rafflasia flower. We do not enjoy the hot spring bath there but experience an excited jungle walk. Around 3.30pm we ate a lunch at one Melay restaurant. The food over there was not bad also (nearby the nation park). After taking our lunch we just went back to the Marine Coat apartment. Then for that day’s dinner we went to eat western food. For that meal was treated by fung and fung’s friends. So nice we got free dinner for that day. After the dinner we went to sing K. For that night it must be the most tired night for me, it might be too boring to sing K and sleep so late for that night. At fist we have planed to go clubbing but do not know why change the plan to sing K. Make most of us quite dull inside the K room.

For the last night uncle treat us a delicious meal in the Floating Seafood Market Restaurant and we were very enjoyed the performance and traditional dance beside the seafood. Not only that, all of us have gone up to the stage to have some fun with Orang Asli. For example we can dance with them the traditional dance like bamboo dance and experiencing shooting the balloon as well. At last we had taken a few pictures with Fung family and the Orang Asli before went to eat tong sui. Really can’t imagine how big our appetites we had for that day, after the dinner straightly went to drink tong sui again. For that night, Vincent also has brought us to see A Guar nearby our apartment. It might seem like very nonsense but it might my first time to purposely went to see A Guar with guy friends.

We have to say goodbye with Fung and Vincent even though we all were not willing. At last we took the delay flight to back Kuala Lumpur. I spent my night at my KL aunty house then only took bus back to Ipoh for the next day.

Welome to "My Little Memory"

Welcome to my little memory blog space. As I mention, my blogspot name is “My Little Memory”, I would like to write some of my sadness and happiness memory in here. Maybe I’m too dependent on someone and need friend very much sometime, so I just try to write down more about my daily life to make myself to feel like I can share my sadness and happiness with my dear friends all the time. No matter is in the daytime or nighttime; I can easily to say out my feeling. Just want to express my feeling, without disrupt anybody’s time and mood. I think to create a blog space is perfect way for me to release my pressure and stress. From here, you guy will suspect that I am the person who like to hidden the stress and unhappiness. There were a lot friends told me; from the surface I look very happy and funny but after know me more, actually I am not. If you ask me is that true, then i think I choose not to answer your question. It is because i myself also do not know the answer. Sometime I feel that I am the easy going person, look like everything is OK for me but sometime I will easily to get angry. I don’t know why. But I really try hard to control it. I always tell myself don’t be so emotion. Life is still going on, but I myself can’t walk out from the troubles. Sometime I am thinking why I have to abuse myself in such suffer condition. Luckily I have a lot of caring friends and family members who give me thousand of support to cheer me up. But I can’t be so dependent anymore. Indeed, to create blog not only can express my feeling but also learn how to become more independent. Not to say sharing with friend face to face is not good, but he and she may not have so much time to share with me. Hahahaa... But I want to express my feeling too. For all these reason, today I create a blog here. Maybe my daily life is nothing for somebody, but it is very worthiness for me. Hopefully it may not make you guy bored while reading “My little Memory”. HeHee….